urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2 laying under the table and dreaming you are what you love, not what loves you. 2006-02-19T10:31:31Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:62134 2006-02-19T10:31:31Z 2006-02-19T10:31:31Z When things start going well, a lot comes too fast and i am scared that happiness is already becoming a memory and that my luck is going to change. <br /><br />but please God, before things fall apart, at least have a boy fall in love with me for a while, k thanks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:60270 2005-12-13T03:23:31Z 2005-12-13T03:23:31Z ‘T was a week before Christmas, and all through the café<br />All the hipsters were blogging, donning scarves of crochet.<br />Their vintage legwarmers were slouched just so,<br />In hopes that the cute drummer would give them flyers to the show.<br />A scenester pondered wish lists with a soy coffee drink,<br />His visions of iPod gadgets colored in pink.<br />Another with short asymmetrical hair<br />Had just settled down to feign interest in Molière.<br /><br />When up by the counter there arose such a jangle,<br />Digi-cams were whipped out, pics were snapped at an angle <br />And uploaded to LJs, right then and right there,<br />For we wouldn’t want to miss such a scene-worthy affair.<br /><br />A bottle of Honest Tea had crashed to the ground,<br />Causing men wearing girl-jeans to turn around.<br />When, what to their wondering eyes should appear,<br />But Conor Oberst of Bright Eyes, in his best rock star gear.<br /><br />This indie icon sent the hipsters a-flurry.<br />I knew in a moment he’d be swarmed in a hurry.<br />More rabid than rodents, his screaming adorers they came,<br />And he whistled and shouted and called them by name:<br /><br />“Now Aimee, now Mandi, now Rian and Dre,<br />Your Chuck Taylors are the sex, but for my drink I must pay!<br />Back to your tables, I’ll sign records soon,<br />And later I’ll get me some hot indie poon.”<br /><br />The kids with trucker hats and their checkered Vans<br />Took their seats, hearts a-flutter, like good emo fans.<br />Upon a table, Conor Oberst he stood,<br />Zipped up his sweater and put on his hood.<br /><br />And then, in a twinkling, a guitar appeared.<br />The cat started strumming—oh the hip, how they cheered!<br />His b-side of “Blue Christmas” throttled from his lips.<br />With the pains of Yuletide he was coming to grips.<br /><br />Yet true holiday spirit was now in full swing,<br />With hipster consumers wanting everything.<br />Despite blasé airs, material goods sure are swell—<br />Urban Outfitters this season will surely do well.<br /><br />That turntable—how deck! These earmuffs—how kitschy!<br />You’ll look hawt in this sweater, even though it is itchy!<br />A hipster’s holiday gifting is better than most,<br />‘Cuz reindeer sweatshirts have enough irony to boast.<br /><br />As the neck of the guitar Oberst held tight in his palm,<br />A tech-savvy hipster recorded the song.<br />Now up on his music blog, you’ll find this leg of a boot.<br />All the users of MySpace together cheer, “w00t!”<br /><br />Enthused by this spontaneous holiday pop,<br />These hipsters planned a trip to record shop.<br />Sufjan and Death Cab and Jimmy Eat World—<br />So many emo-rock Christmas tunes have they unfurled.<br /><br />Outside the café, onlookers peered through the glass<br />Smoking clove cigarettes ‘neath an ironic moustache.<br />But were you ever to label them as chasing the trends<br />You’d get flat-out denial and a foot in your end.<br /><br />An encore was played with the most apropos themes:<br />Hate meat and &lt;3 liberals to be part of the scene.<br />A wink of his eye and a flick of his wrist<br />Soon gave fans their own personal reason to exist.<br /><br />A shaggy-haired dude, conjuring his inner-Seth Cohen<br />Screamed out to Bright Eyes, “We heart you, keep goin’!”<br />Then laying a finger aside of his nose,<br />Oberst snorted a line, up the honker coke rose.<br /><br />He sprang off the table, for the exit he made,<br />Grabbed his messenger bag, and his aviator shades.<br />But I heard him exclaim, to the hipsters’ delight,<br />“A blue Christmas to all, and to all, a cold, bitter, forgotten, detached, lonely, self-pitying night!” urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:59169 2005-10-19T07:34:57Z 2005-10-19T07:34:57Z Well I can see you on the horizon like a storm thatт�'s soon to be<br /><b>and is it so bad to be in love with a memory of you, smiling back at me</b> <br />And it was subtle but it was, yeah it was subtle <br />But it was sexy <br /><br />And I suppose I could tell you how I feel, but even I can't tell if its really real <br />And one day I will tell you what's on my mind <br />But for now I just leave it as mystery <br />Soon to unwind, and in time, its like this...<br /><br />I kinda just want that kiss <br />Just for the thrill or just maybe to miss <br />You when you go, just so I know <br />That It can and it does get better than this, <br />and really love is just a hit and miss <br />you walk and you jump and you sink <br />It happens more than youт�'d think<br /><br />And I suppose I could tell you how I feel <br />But<b> I'��d rather play it cool and keep it real</b><br />And maybe I could show you just so you could see т <br />the secret behind the mystery <br /><br />And its another one of those days <br />when you'��d wish it rain already <br />and the sky��s no ordinary shade of gray <br /><br />But you make it ok... <br /><br />Ohh yes, yes I do have a crush on you <br />cus see your trap you know I fell right through <br />with me its always something new <br /><br />To see.. <br /><br />I should probably tell you how I feel <br />But the moment was magic, it was so surreal <br />and i swear one day i will let you know <br />but for now, im gonna let you go... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:58075 2005-07-30T09:52:30Z 2005-07-30T09:52:30Z I am sick stoned and ty ty. <br /><br />I haaaaate working till two am on friday nights. lame.<br />everyone go see hustle and flow. <br />it was gheeetto fab. <br /><br />xo kt urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:54014 2005-06-03T20:04:31Z 2005-06-03T20:04:31Z so I am in San Diego right now for the next two nights annnnnnnd I am craving a cigarette.<br /><br />Its cloudy and lame.<br />I am about to dye my hair blonde. <br />we will see how that goes.<br /><br />tonight is Chilly's 21st birthday,<br />I hope we go to Lipsssssssss.<br /><br />I am glad to have a break from boys and work for this weekend<br /><br />I cannot wait to see my girls &lt;3<br /><br />caity, ill see you next week, dont worry! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:53568 2005-05-31T23:29:22Z 2005-05-31T23:29:22Z so not having the internet in my apartment is becoming something beautiful.<br />I don't aimlessly waste time on the computer, but instead do more productive things like..<br />i dont know. nothing i guess<br /><br />anyways whats a girl to do when she likes a boy soo much but the timing is wrong and another hot boy whom the boy she likes lives with wants on? someone please solve this riddle!<br /><br />I am getting stronger.<br />I am able to see how strong i am on my own.<br />I dont need boys.<br /><br />slash.. I want em<br />p/s/<br />I loove weed <br /><br />i hate flat beer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:53003 2005-05-25T19:39:37Z 2005-05-25T19:39:37Z I am so stressed.<br />I am so crazy about a boy.<br />I am broke.<br />I am trying to do everything in one day.<br />I need a tan.<br />I need to continue to eat well.<br />I need to stop drinking.<br />I will not smoke pot for a while.<br />I will try to quit smoking cigarettes.<br />I will be a better daughter.<br />I will try and relax. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:48413 2005-04-28T17:53:22Z 2005-04-28T17:53:22Z really stressed out right now.<br />school is winding down, the parties are picking up and i am going through an identity crisis<br />what do i really want?<br /><br /><br />soo much school work, so much at stake.<br /><b>i cant fuck it up</b><br /><br />school, finding a place to live, and finding out what the hell i am gonna do.<br />nooo fun (but all i really want is to have fun)<br /><br />all i really want is for everything to work out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:46912 2005-04-15T08:15:23Z 2005-04-15T08:15:23Z i feel lke since i am wsrted and i alreadyu caleed everyone in mu phonr nbook io dhi djoulf podt sincre i am bad news.<br /><br />i lovr all mu friends.<br />i hate boys,<br />cus well all be portyiond for foxes. <br /><br />bostonm won!!<br /><br />pretty thing,<br /><br />tslking lrsds to sex. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:46499 2005-04-09T07:32:02Z 2005-04-09T07:32:02Z And that's how this idea was drilled into my head<br /><br />"Cause it's too important to stay the way it's been"<br /><br />There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade<br />And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all<br />And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide<br />Lying awake at night urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:44279 2005-03-27T11:28:42Z 2005-03-27T11:28:42Z I walked across an empty land<br />I knew the pathway like the back of my hand<br />I felt the earth beneath my feet<br />Sat by the river and it made me complete <br />Oh simple thing where have you gone<br />I'm getting old and I need something to rely on<br />So tell me when you're gonna let me in<br />I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin <br /><br />I came across a fallen tree<br />I felt the branches of it looking at me<br />Is this the place we used to love?<br />Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? <br /><br />Oh simple thing where have you gone<br />I'm getting old and I need something to rely on<br />So tell me when you're gonna let me in<br />I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin <br /><br />And if you have a minute why don't we go<br />Talk about it somewhere only we know?<br />This could be the end of everything<br />So why don't we go<br />Somewhere only we know? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:43794 2005-03-27T03:01:43Z 2005-03-27T03:01:43Z he looked so cute. <br />he looked so so good.<br /><br />i miss him..<br /><br /><br />and tomorrow i leave to go back up north :( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:43457 2005-03-18T09:15:53Z 2005-03-18T09:15:53Z Judy wrote the saddest song<br />She showed it to a boy in school today<br />Judy, where did you go wrong?<br />You used to make me smile when I was down<br />Judy was a teenage rebel<br />She did it with a boy when she was young<br />She gave herself to books and learning<br />She gave herself to being number one<br />Judy, I don't know you if you're gonna show me everything<br />Judy, I don't know you if you're gonna show me everything<br /><br />Judy got a book at school<br />She went under the cover with her torch<br />She fell asleep till it was morning<br />She dreamt about the girl who stole a horse<br />Judy never felt so good except when she was sleeping<br />Judy never felt so good except when she was sleeping<br /><br />Judy, let's go for a walk<br />We can kiss and whatever you want<br />But you will be disappointed<br />You will asleep with ants in your pants<br />Judy, you're just trying to find and keep the dream of horses<br />And the song she wrote was Judy and the Dream of Horses<br />Dream of Horses<br />You dream of horses<br /><br />With a parrot on your shoulder, saying everything when you talk<br />If you're ever feeling blue<br />Then write another song about your dream of horses<br />Write a song about your dream of horses<br />Call it Judy And The Dream Of Horses<br />Call it Judy And The Dream Of Horses<br />You dream of horses urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:43222 2005-03-18T09:11:57Z 2005-03-18T09:11:57Z I'm in the sky when I'm on the floor<br />The world's a mess and your my only cure <br />There's no time for me to act mature <br />The only words I know are "more, more" and "more" <br /><br />No one to criticise me then <br />No one to criticise <br />No one to criticise me then <br />No one to criticise <br /><br />There's no fear when I'm in my room <br />It's so clear and I know just what I want to do <br />All day bedroom dancing <br />To you I wanna say <br />Your my thing<br /><br />You teach me...<br />You only teach me wisely<br />...only show me why<br />I remember<br />I remember everything<br />I don't wanna stop<br />I remember everything urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:42827 2005-03-18T08:37:19Z 2005-03-18T08:37:19Z So your ex got a mansion where you kick it on the hill<br />your boy comes to see you, he's your hollywood thrill<br />he's a Spanish fly, bucks like a stallion<br />in the suits that you got him, he looks more Italian<br />you worry bout your tan when the weather's gettin clammy<br />summer in the city and winters in Miami<br />you get so high on the high life pills<br />cruisin and boozin and rockin on the horse size pills<br />you could even take more thrills<br />you could even take more spills<br />pills, thrills, chills and ills man, kills<br />and rockin on the horse size<br />butt's gettin bigger <br />do you think he'll notice maybe?<br />that's ok, don't worry bout it baby<br />cause everybody knows he pumps you for your money<br />that's alright, don't worry bout it honey<br />in your itsy bitsy teenie weenie riding up your butt bikini<br />keepin on the heels cause you're saggin just a teenie bit<br />more than the girls he pretends he doesn't thrill<br />rubbin on the lotion, and rockin on the horse size pills<br />you could even take more thrills<br />you could even take more spills<br />pills, thrills, chills, and ills man, kills<br />and rockin on the horse size<br />sometimes you feel like Moses<br />that's when you're toasted<br />yeah kick it<br />yo bitch<br />that's right<br />rockin on the horse size urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:42503 2005-03-12T07:42:18Z 2005-03-12T07:42:18Z i just ate a pizza and couldnt throw it up Once my lover, now my friend.<br />What a cruel thing to pretend.<br />What a cunning way to condescend.<br />Once my lover, now my friend.<br /><br />Oh, you creep up like the clouds.<br />And you set my soul to ease.<br />Then you let your love abound.<br />And you bring me to my knees.<br /><br />Oh, it’s evil,babe,the way you let your grace enrapture me.<br />When, well, you know, I’d be insane -<br />To ever let that dirty game recapture me.<br /><br />You made me a shadowboxer, baby.<br />I wanna be ready for what you do.<br />I been swinging all around me.<br />’cause I don’t know when you’re gonna make your move.<br /><br />Oh, your gaze is dangerous.<br />And you fill your space so sweet.<br />If I let you get too close,<br />You’ll set your spell on me.<br /><br />So, darlin’, I just wanna say.<br />Just in case I don’t come through.<br />I was on to every play.<br />I just wanted you.<br /><br />But, oh, it’s so evil, my love,<br />The way you’ve no reverence to my concern.<br />So, I’ll be sure to stay wary of you, love,<br />To save the pain of once my flame and twice my burn.<br /><br />You made me a shadowboxer, baby.<br />I wanna be ready for what you do.<br />I been swinging all around me.<br />’cause I don’t know when you’re gonna make your move. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:42332 2005-03-10T19:48:47Z 2005-03-10T19:48:47Z so today is going to be a re-organizing day.<br /><br />i am quitting my job to focus on school sinnnce i am fucking up my grades.<br />i am cutting down my cigarette intake to 2-3 cigarettes tops.<br />I am finishing my essay before 12 tonight.<br /><br />i dont have practice tomorrow, but i am not going out.. i am not going out this entire weekend to get ready for the rest of my midterms.<br /><br />it's 79 degress, clear blue skies and i am missing the beach.. :( i think i am going tomorrow<br /><br />i cant wait for spring break to see all my girls.<br />palm springs and rosarito wooohooo!!!<br /><br />love to everyone,<br />kt urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:41931 2005-02-28T14:44:49Z 2005-02-28T14:44:49Z well well well its 6:41 am!!! <br /><br />how exciting!<br /><br />you want to know why this is exciting? <br />because i haven't fucking been to sleep yet!<br /><br />why? you may ask.<br />well its because i had a ten page paper I didn't start until ten last night.<br />fabulous huh?<br /><br />want to know what can make this predicament even better?????<br /><br />field hockey practice in forty eight minutes!<br /><br />YAYYYY<br />and not just practice, but conditioning!!!<br /><br />so the following i consumed in order to make it through the night and still retain brain cells:<br />aderrol, two cups of tea with two tea bags in each, a quad americano, and a half a pack of cigarettes<br /><br />hope i get a good grade on the paper.. i mean it is worth 25% of my grade. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:41707 2005-02-24T19:15:22Z 2005-02-24T19:15:22Z I dont love anyone<br /><br />Youre not listening<br /><br />Youre playing with something<br /><br />Youre playing with yourself<br /><br /><br /><br />I dont love anyone<br /><br />Youre not listening even now<br /><br />Youre playing with someone<br /><br />Youre playing with someone else<br /><br /><br /><br />And if theres one thing that I learned when I was a child<br /><br />Its to take a hiding<br /><br /><br /><br />I dont love anything<br /><br />Not even christmas<br /><br />Especially not that<br /><br />I dont love anything<br /><br /><br /><br />No, I dont love anyone<br /><br />Maybe my sister<br /><br />Maybe my sd girlies and cassondra, yeah<br /><br />I dont love anyone<br /><br /><br /><br />But if theres one thing that I learned when I was still a child<br /><br />Its to take a hiding<br /><br />Yeah if theres one thing that I learned when I was still at school<br /><br />Its to be alone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:41157 2005-02-14T03:57:27Z 2005-02-14T03:57:27Z the notebook My Dearest Allie. <br /><br />I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever.<br />I love you. I'll be seeing you. <br /><br />Noah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:40946 2005-02-06T06:51:21Z 2005-02-06T06:51:21Z I've decided one of the most lonliest times in life could be right when you get out of college. I mean, everyone is off creating a career for themselves... everyone is going in different directions. So i have decided that unless you move to an area close by friends, your social scene starts from scratch. You have to meet new boys, find new friends to hit the bars with, and live in an apartment by yourself. Ive decided this is horrible. I dont know why I wrote about this, but it just came into my head about how the time where you need to start providing for youself is also the time youre the most alone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:40533 2005-02-03T23:34:31Z 2005-02-03T23:34:31Z damien rice my throat is still fucking fuccccccked up after three weeks.<br /><br />fuckkkk that shit.<br /><br />i am going on a date with a baseball player from the houston astros.<br />I want to go on a date with my future husband. but i fucked that one up by.. fucking.. literally.<br />I want to have sex. I want to cuddle. I want to be stable. I want to be calm. I want a drink. I want to sleep. I want to be wanted. I want a forhead kiss. <br /><br />I want a boyfriend<br /><br /><br /><br />but for now, i will have to settle with pit tickets to modest mouse tonight. whaaaaaaaaaaat gangster.<br /><br />and new order is playing coachella? what? hahah i looove it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:40330 2005-02-01T23:09:44Z 2005-02-01T23:13:13Z i am a west side gangster tupac <b>is</b> still alive.<br />lil kim is either coked up or doped up.<br />fuck bad boy. die slow mother fuckers.<br /><br />west side till we die. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:40016 2005-01-27T23:15:10Z 2005-01-27T23:15:10Z my mom is the best.<br />she sent me an "early valentine's day" present.<br />a bottle of cool waters, a box of butterscotch squares and scotch mellows, and a card.<br /><br />how cute. that made my day! :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:noliesjustlove2:39635 2005-01-25T06:15:30Z 2005-01-25T06:15:30Z today is scientifically proven to be the most depressing day of the year.<br /><br /><br />annnd i definitely cried like 23984908 million times today.